Why Love?

Why love someone?
Do you really LOVE anyone but yourself?
When i say "i love you" i'm saying it because someone said it to me and i care about them and maybe i have spent some precious times with them and i consider them comfortable and or enjoyable to be around.
I think this is why it can be so easy to feel like you love everyone when your on drugs or just feeling high becasue you can convince or train your brain to enjoy anything and anyone.
Anything i don't enjoy about someone or anything that i am uncomfortable with is a projection of myself and my own insecurities.
Anything that i love about someone else is also a projection of me and the qualities that i choose to admire in others are qualities that i share with them.
I don't manifest qualities alone easily. Feelings positive or negative are usually instigated by another energy human or otherwise.
When your alone with no outside stimulation you may get bored because you don't know how to trigger yourself and your qualities without an outside stimulas.
So maybe there is no loving others only yourself and maybe some energies trigger me more than others and i have not yet learned how to love myself completly therefore i sometimes avoid people that stimulate an emotion of anger because i am angry with myself.

I Love You= your energy instigates my love and I'm stimulated with good vibrations inside from your energy

If this theroy is corrrect after training myself to love everything about myself i will be without judgment. I will beable to love anyone and everyone i share energies with will be my romantic partner.

Leaving

My Quest- I have been brave and taken the first step i left behind what is familiar and comforting, which has been anything from my home to bitter old resentments, anything i felt i had an unnecessary attachment to due to enviormental circumstances. This is to set out on a truth-seeking journey, both externally and internally, and if i am truly willing to regard everything that happens to me on this journey as a clue and if i accept everyone i meet along the way as a teacher and if i am prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about myself, then i will have broken open the doors to my never ending quest.